The General Rant/Bitch/Moan Thread.

^^ Hope Matt will be OK, and I hope you got enough sleep to be all right today.

Nsane: Faulty electronics drive me nuts!

And my contribution: Big bad migraine. Since last night.

I can't recommend the movie "Rachel Getting Married." It's really family-strife tense, and I've had the migraine since then.

^ Hope it goes way way away! ...and You feel better soon!

^^Thanks Cyn; it heard you! It's lifting slowly, finally. Dizziness that came with it is going away as well.

I hate how some people are just lazy. It's our first day back to school after a week off. I told my group in sociology that I had come up with a lot of people that we could survey over break. I also asked that we all stay after class for a few minutes to decide when we are going to make up the survey questions and tell everyone what they need to do.

Well it is appearant that everyone wants to avoid the project like the plague out of class so I waited until the end. Alyssa stayed. Antony stayed. Where was megan? She freaken booked first thing out of that class. She is the one always missing from class or doesn't answer my texts or emails. Antony at least helped with the questions last time. Alyssa helped with the questions and the interview. What has megan done? Nothing. People like her piss me off. There is no way I'm letting her get my grade for all of my hard work.

Speaking of lazy......
My husband arranged to have the repair people come in today to look at our leaky windows. Instead of helping me clean up the house a bit and moving the furniture away from the windows to make it easier for the repair people, he decides to tell me last night, as I'm crawling into bed, that *I* should clean up the house. The f**king nerve! Why can't he pick up after himself Why must I do everything? I'm not his f**king slave! I need help. I work and go to school. He gets home from work at least an hour before i do, and all he does is sit on fat a$$. he doesn't lift a finger!

^^ Oh, that is *not* cool. If he's so worried about it, he can put in some effort. You do have more time commitments than he has, and marriage is a partnership after all.

I've not got any decent sleep since she left.

I wake up every hour.

RedAngel wrote:

^^ Oh, that is *not* cool. If he's so worried about it, he can put in some effort. You do have more time commitments than he has, and marriage is a partnership after all.

Right? Thank you! I need to have yet another chat with him about it. He does do the laundry and dishwasher....though all he has to do is load the machines and press a few buttons. LOL God forbid he should pick up a toilet brush or a mop.

There is an apple tree in my paradise. I just wish I new what the apple tree was. When matt left my house the other day things were fine. He texted me before he went back to sleep at his house while I was at class. I haven't heard from him since. He won't answer my texts or calls. I know he is at work. I waited for him to get out of his car. By the time I got out of my car and called his name he had just opened the door to go into work. He never looked back. I left a note on his car. I feel low. I wish I new what was wrong. It's not like him not to text or answer my calls. I just want to sleep and not wake up.

Update

I left him a note on his car when he went to work. Since I couldn't go back to sleep after waking up repeatedly I wanted to try to see if he was still at work to talk to him. I heard a car door this morning while I was sleeping. I got a rose on my car and a note on the rose saying:

"Trust me baby you didn't do anything wrong. I'm just dealing with some sh!t right now and I am sorry that I'm shutting you out but I just don't wanna be around anyone. I never told you but I suffere from bi-polar disorder and depression. So it's double hard for me. I love you lots. You're my world. Love your future hubby, matt."

The note gives me answers but I still don't feel any better. I want to be able to help him with what ever is wrong. I want to know what is wrong. I just wish I could help him with whatever this is. I feel helpless.

Madelchai wrote:

I've not got any decent sleep since she left.

I wake up every hour.

She loves you very much, and would want you to be happy. Bet it's a matter of time before one of you hops the pond for good to be with the other.

I know how hard it can be to mentally turn away from negative thoughts and toward positive ones, but I believe you can do this.

deadcoldgothgirl wrote:

Update

I left him a note on his car when he went to work. Since I couldn't go back to sleep after waking up repeatedly I wanted to try to see if he was still at work to talk to him. I heard a car door this morning while I was sleeping. I got a rose on my car and a note on the rose saying:

"Trust me baby you didn't do anything wrong. I'm just dealing with some sh!t right now and I am sorry that I'm shutting you out but I just don't wanna be around anyone. I never told you but I suffere from bi-polar disorder and depression. So it's double hard for me. I love you lots. You're my world. Love your future hubby, matt."

The note gives me answers but I still don't feel any better. I want to be able to help him with what ever is wrong. I want to know what is wrong. I just wish I could help him with whatever this is. I feel helpless.

I'm glad he told you what he's dealing with. It's a challenging situation, but as long as you know you're getting as much love in this relationship as you're giving, I think the two of you will be all right. (Remember that you count too, though. ) I really am glad he's keeping lines of communication open; I was once with someone who did not, and that hurt really bad. Let him know that you're there for him (if that is your choice); he'll feel good to know you're in his corner.

^^I want to. I was thinking about stopping by his house and leaving another note telling him that I want to be there for him and help him with what ever this is. But my "better" judgement is telling me to just leave him alone until he comes to me. A part of me still really wants to leave that note. But another part of me is saying I should just bring that up once he comes to me since he already said he wants to be alone.

If my advice means anything hon, I would just say wait for him to make the next move. I know he's upset you but you have to be patient with him. For whatever reason (probably fear) he didnt tell you about his condition before he felt that he could trust you with that information. He loves you babe, you two will be fine but give him the space he needs

^^Mrs. D your words always mean a lot

I suck. Bank balance is low again. I know what to do, I just always think I have more wiggle room (be it money or diet) than I really do. I just suck.

^ I feel your pain. All my money goes to bills now. No wiggle room at all!

Think the last of my unemployment just ran out. ><

RedAngel wrote:

I suck. Bank balance is low again. I know what to do, I just always think I have more wiggle room (be it money or diet) than I really do. I just suck.

La Diva Carlotta wrote:

^ I feel your pain. All my money goes to bills now. No wiggle room at all!

Madelchai wrote:

Think the last of my unemployment just ran out. ><

I'm sensing a theme...

^^Yeah...one of us needs to win the lottery...and fast!!!

RedAngel wrote:

I suck. Bank balance is low again. I know what to do, I just always think I have more wiggle room (be it money or diet) than I really do. I just suck.

La Diva Carlotta wrote:

^ I feel your pain. All my money goes to bills now. No wiggle room at all!

Madelchai wrote:

Think the last of my unemployment just ran out. ><

RedAngel wrote:

RedAngel wrote:

I suck. Bank balance is low again. I know what to do, I just always think I have more wiggle room (be it money or diet) than I really do. I just suck.

La Diva Carlotta wrote:

^ I feel your pain. All my money goes to bills now. No wiggle room at all!

Madelchai wrote:

Think the last of my unemployment just ran out. ><

I'm sensing a theme...

La Diva Carlotta wrote:

^^Yeah...one of us needs to win the lottery...and fast!!!

Well you all know I'm going to join this band wagon since I've been complaining about money for ages. I don't ever play the lottery but on rare occasion when I'm with alyssa I will play scratch offs. If I ever win anything that will do good I would be willing to share. Unfortunately the most I ever get back is $15

I think I may have found the cure to a crap bank balance - I just make my own lunch for work and then dont go out at lunchtime - I used to spend the odd £5 here and there and it soon mounted up.

Dont hit me but I'm flush enough at the moment with doing that to buy a new television and get a new tattoo

^^ Great plan! I've been making my lunches for years, usually 4 of 5 days a week -- the trouble is, cost of living has gone up (utilities, groceries, etc.) but my pay has not, since about '06 or so.

I'm a little upset. It is really cloudy out tonight and I really wanted to see mars. It's supposed to be the last time we will see it until 2012. Saturn will be visible on monday though. Hopefully I will be able to take a gander at that at least.

The temperature has been dropping. I really don't want to go back to wearing hats and gloves again.